DonDie…CuTe…

Last night was the bomb. My theory was right you should
always have a reserved plan, you should always have a plan B. Because you may
turn out at the end of the day empty handed, that’s why when I realized that
both my crush and my friend was having some “affairs” I immediately went to my
plan B where I was most welcome.

 This is my
first gimmick since a very long time ago, I reunited with my old friends and
get to know a few new once, but that’s not the high light of the story. What’s
the story all about you might ask, well be patient.

The first step to my arrival to beeracay last night I was
cruisin’ around because I can’t see my friends, where they were sitting because
there were a lot of new faces that night. It was like I was really new to this
place. There were those newbie wannabe and the social climbers and the ordinary
people that was just sitting on the sides like the background of that old
place. Then my friend grab my hands and I was surprise that I was them, I
greeted everyone with a hug, I missed them so much and they said that “nabanhaw
daw ako” in this busy life, I seldom go back, relax and have some time with my
old fiends. The greeting went on like forever. Then went to the dance floor a
guy wearing black jacket, He was wearing a big smile, he looks so perfect the
way he danced, the way his eyes sparkles and he was dancing and the ways his
smile was explicitly there and how I wish that someday he would also smile for
me. I doubt it he is too good to be true, I am the person who usually is not shy
and Im all out there, I approach people easily but this time I didn’t have the
courage to do so. I didn’t know the exact reason; my friends were kinda a bit
shock because I wasn’t usually shy.

 Lets skip
some parts because this getting a bit boring, We waited till the time they went
out then my friend that is his friend, which is manuel got his number for me. Luckily
he was not mad, and we are still texting up until now. 

MAY 17, A MARK IN GAY HISTORY.
DONDIE MARK GADO

IDAHO, International Day Against Homophobia started on May 17, 1990 when General Assembly of the World Health Organization (WHO) removed homosexuality from their list of mental disorders. This became first step for gays, lesbian, bisexuals and transgender on fighting for recognition of equal rights. Until now, a total of 80 countries world wide still criminalize homosexuality and also condemns consensual same sex intercourse through imprisonment, and 9 of these countries condemns then to death including; Afghanistan, Iran, Mauritania, Nigeria, Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, Sudan, United Arab Emirates and Yemen.

The United Nation by the ambassadors and leaders alike by all countries in the world, until now doesn’t recognize formally the discrimination on the grounds of sexual orientation and gender identity even though human rights mechanisms such as the Human Rights Committee have repeatedly condemned discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation and gender identity.

2005 IDAHO was celebrated in more than 50 countries, from France to Hong Kong. A large variety of initiatives were taken and they were widely covered by the Media. In Iran, in spite of the government brutal homophobia, IDAHO was talked about on numerous blogs and in thousands of emails. In Kiev, Ukraina, a huge balloon with ‘Say no to Homophobia” was let loose. In the Philippines people who were aware of it and supported IDAHO wear pink in their schools and work place.

In the local scene homophobia is still visible, Bienvenido Abante, Member of the Philippine House of Representatives and Chair of the House Committee on Civil, Political and Human Rights denies the rights for Homosexuals for trying to force his sexual orientation on others. Representative Abante has urged that homosexuals be “cured” and turned into heterosexuals. He has repeatedly blocked a landmark bill that would ban discrimination based on sexual orientation and gender identity in the Philippines. He has also suggested that lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people are excluded from the “definition” of human rights.

The IDAHO is a mark that though there is recognition it is still not enough there still remains oppressed gays and lesbian alike. Many are called faggot, queer and all those words otter, actions done is marking a scar to the hearts and minds of these people. It is of homophobia that you should be fearful, not homos!

Life is like a rollercoaster its something that is
unexpected but you anticipate something exciting to happen. But you know what
that’s a shallow meaning of doing so. Life has always been unexpected, and you
know what I learned? Is that when you tamper with the situations that you have
as of the current moment you ruin the current status que that you have. And
when that thing is ruined you will find out that when you do it, and initiate
it, it’s something not worth while, when you already know that, that person
doesn’t really like you. I wish I could be more handsome than the other guys, I
wish that I could fit the standard that the person I long for wants, but I
guess I will always be just someone considered as a friend and nothing more.
Yes, I am afraid of loving, but im not afraid of something that is trilling at
the end of the day. I know that, that person who I am referring doesn’t really
care if I written an article about him. You know what physically he is not the
person I looking for but when you look at him in general he is the perfect guy,
but when you take a look at outside of the box you should not pre-determine if
a person is the MR. right because there is not such thing as Mr. right, because
black and white the world maybe for some other people but it is diverse and you
should not be trapped with a particular standards, you should try others… why
is that so? Because maybe, when you kept on finding the Mr. Right, the chinito,
gwapo and what so ever, you tend to ignore the person that was near to you and
was hurt in a way.

That’s it for now.

Fuck Homophobia. (a repost from Francis’ multiply)

No to Homophobia

*I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag
everyday.
*I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am
a lesbian.
*I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual
woman.
*I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful,
tear-filled nights.
*We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
*I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my
partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
*I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from
the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they
could adopt me.
*I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating
high school. It was simply too much to bear.
*I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of
this secret because I won’t risk losing my family and friends.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we
wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
*I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid
getting the management called on me.
*I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed,
and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another
woman.
*I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly
cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
*I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to
because I am male.
*I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show
affection to other men.
*I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone
told me that only lesbians do that.
*I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they
realized I was transsexual.
*I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better
person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.
*I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but
because they closed their doors to my kind.
*I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
*I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I’m a lesbian, because they
constantly make fun of them.
*I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because
two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”

** International
Anti-Homophobia Day ** May 17, 2008 ** wear pink **

It was fun chasing illusions… it gave me
the reason to be happy even if it wasn’t real. It’s just disappointing because
when the chase came to an end. I was left but a memory of something that never
existed.

this is something to really think about. You will never know that the person is really real/true or really feeling the feeling that you are feeling. because if you say "do you love me?" its really insulting in your part why? because you are forcing a person to be yours. SO by not saying or asking anything you pre-empt that that person has feeling for you with for a fact he/she doesnt really. and at the last part of it all you are the person who gave it all and you are the person who will sind up miserable. yes, you were happy at first but is that the measurement of it all. the illusion of you to love someone not loving you. but you know what… its not enough.. but what is enough… huhu tell me

life its self has always been so good to me… God always bless me with so many things… I really am thankful for it. I have a good family,good friends, a good education… but somehow at some point in my life. i feel there is something lacking in my life. A hole in my totality. A feeling of emptiness inside. Maybe im looking for something, maybe a personal legend… A purpose in life.. who in the world at my age isnt? right? for almost 4 months I felt this. … dont know what it is???? can u tell me?

wow!.. im about to turn 18 nxt week. wooowhh… im having those flash backs. i want to ennumerate all the struff thats on my mind right now but Its to long to type. hahaha…

In my 18th year. Ive achieve so much. Much more than I could ever imagine. Im a co-owner of a company which is DSPA or Davao Society of Performing Artist the fact that our members and production staff calls me "SIR" despitre of my age is really a self-esteem booster in my part. Seeing them grow in the organization and soon, seeing them on television is really an honor for me.

Wait, I can get arrested na pala. What a bummer! well it will be a new chapter in my life my adulthood… hahaha… parang big deal masyado noh? la lang… cge mag-self sa ko!

Is life by chance? or does averything happen for a reason? Sometimes I view life as pointless. You exert effort for something then at the end, your the one who gets left behind. The one who did all the work, the one who loved, who aited patiently, and cared for a person for a very long time, is the one who gets left behind and gets deserted. Alone, sad and missirable.

My story started one evening. It was almost the end of the semester. who would have thought that this simple night would totally make a wound, and leave a scar in my total exsistance. This particular night i opened this taboo internet access site that is a total hit here in davao. This site… to be continued……

You can see in blogs… 1st love 1stheart ache 1st mushy stuff… but what Im putting in my blog is my very 1st "formal" break-up… hmmm… actually this is not my 1st lover nor my 1st break-up even… but this is the very 1st time that i broke up with somebody, right then and thier at his face. I mean its really hard… trying to be sensitive with your partner’s feelings you know. And its really hard to say the right words… I lived a life to w/c I break-up with someone maybe in text, in an email or just not showing up to that person. But Infront that was my 1st time. and well actually its a bommer coz he wants me back and I dont want him.. and I dont want him to look foolish coz I love him… But were in different levels.. or in other words not compatible.. Now he keeps on sending emails and text beging… Im afraid of what he will do next.. hmmmmfff… I hate break-ups… help me…

woohhh…. I started xmas with a blast because I was like attending missa de gallo.. woohhh my gush waking up early in the morning… grabe todo na to. The 1st two mornings I didnt slept at all grabe ha. But that doesnt matter really because I was really inspired to get a wish and to be with God’s presence this xmas… hahaha… pagkakugmo na lang.

well honestly my wish would not come true because The person was a wish and thatg person said just yesterday evening "stop loving me" huhu… know how painful that feel. and for me its really painful because I a player parang geting back na un to all the people that Ive hurt.. huhu. still its okay because ive learned somthing…

" you can get everything if you work hard but sometime there are things that are just not for you"…

thats all merry xmas…..